A ‘best of’ collection, of sorts
I have this other blog that I’ve been neglecting and then re-reading this year. I started it in 2007 before I knew how powerful blogging was – and would be for me.
This morning, with two feature stories and my weekly column to churn out, I find myself longing to write in this other way, to expand into this other room – and what is a blog, really? – a chamber of words on white back-lit walls.
Anyway, as a gesture to the ‘real’ work – a chronicle/memoir of the last six years in which everything in my life was turned inside out – I’ve started collecting the posts that contain the stories that will appear, in one form or another, in the book. I have been deeply moved by re-engaging with this point of view – a woman going through things that re-shaped her, captured just after they occurred.
Some of these are pretty long; others less than a page; and, though I’ve attempted to assemble them into a kind of ‘order’ they’re not listed chronologically.
Best to think of them as author’s notes, collected by searching on the old blog for the keywords: Glass, heart, wings…
That said, here they are.
The Awareness is so big – Yoga, becoming a mystic, my father starts falling.
Terrorists – Torah, Simon Cowell, Susan Boyle.
Fire Island – On the last day of summer, my daughter and I drop my son off at college and take a ferry to the island.
Memoir – The one where my husband lets go of the wheel while driving; and also, my father starts falling apart
How will i meet this? Part 1 – on suffering and how to meet it in others, and in ourselves
How will I meet this? Part 2 – on wilderness, and what to do when you get lost
Eating Lightbulbs – a dream I had-abbey ice, mystic water, light
The magic house – in which we find a house we all love
On Shining – on learning to let your story out, no matter what happens
About my Dad – when I began to realize I was compiling a memoir
The End of Men: Water - Dad won’t move to a nursing home (the goldfish story)
The End of Men: water, goldfish, wheels
Traffic Court – the day I went to fight the ticket I got on the day that Max went to college orientation and Dad would up in the hospital
The End of Men: Rose Essential Oil – Dad is moved to the hospital
Disintegration – the day the pyrex baking dish exploded; Dad in the hospital, mom moves out of their house.
The End of Men: Poker – My father used to play poker with his buddies
The End of Men: The end of men – threads of men leaving me; life ending
The End of Men: Poker 2 – Dad says, “I cry a lot.”
What to bring to the nursing home: Exact words on a flyer we received from the Hebrew Home
About my mom, after dad was in the nursing home, her heart surgery
Wings 2 - Thanksgiving At my in-laws house, the split between my old and new selves emerges through the top of my head
Heart – My mother’s open heart surgery
A dream I had – Six months after mom’s surgery.
Notes to self as I fell back in love with my husband:
The first house we did not buy – this one is VERY long. It contains many of the seeds for the book that I’m writing
On writing a memoir