Amy Oscar

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What if you... didn't have to know what anything means or what will happen next

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 As I am practicing not having to know these things...... how to be... what happens next... what is coming... and what it all means.... And not needing to control what happens next by creating a story about it.... And not being in charge of the world but rather, being a part of it.... And integrating into this moment in the way that a breeze is integral to the air and the air is a part of the atmosphere and the earth is a part of the solar system...a (huge) bee lands on my keyboard for one beat and lifts off again. And a black bird swoops beneath my umbrella, and the server arrives with a bowl of bright berries and a baby cries. The produce delivery arrives, stacks of boxes of fresh fruits and vegetables.And the tiny bird that is always here, hops around my feet.And by the time I have captured this moment, this tiny slice of all that is here, it is a new moment, and a hundred thousand new things have happened, all at once.