Nothing is wrong with you
This exercise was revised (and greatly improved)thanks to Marcia Nelson Pedde,who sent me a personal note by email.You will find our conversationbelow the original post.
Here's the Original Post:
What if nothing was wrong with you? Nothing to fix or heal.
What would you do?
How would you be?Today's SoulCall is a challenge.Step one:Make a list of all the things you'd do if only you weren't so ... wrong.Make a list of all the ways you'd be if only you were... enough.List all of it - the things you'd say, the places you'd go, the people you'd let into (or out of) your heart.Step two:Do that.Step three:Watch what happens.-----Here's Marcia's email:
Amy,A tough exercise.Step one for me was easy!I know at my core that I am not wrong. I know at my core, in my heart, the essence of ME, that who I am IS enough.My list is astounding in its potential, its joy & wonder.Then comes Step Two.My list and my life don't match.I AM enough yet I do not HAVE enough money to do all that I would choose to do, the places I would choose to go & how I would choose to live & be. The reality of this life is, in a gazillion ways, truly joyful! As you may recall I 'featherwalk' every day! Yet it also keeps me bound. I work retail & just above minimum wage.Amy, I savour all I can from where I have chosen to be in this physical realm. I express all that I am with love and laughter & the lightness of my being. Yet occasionally (like attempting this exercise) resistence to this life rears as there is so much I want to do. So many places I would choose to go, experiences I wish to honour, people I have yet to meet...This is what I do not have enough of ... and I do not see any way to achieve these dreams that scream from my heart to be released & expressed... I am 67 and there is so much life left in me to live!!!!So, as I said, Step Two: Do That ... I am doing all I can with the limited finances available to me yet it seems not enough...Though this emails seems heavy, may I add from my heart... bless you for all that you are, all that you do and all that you share from your heart...In Light & Laughter & Love,Marcia----
Here's my response to Marcia (and the new exercise, revised)
Oh, thank you so much for responding so fully to this exercise - and letting me know how it strikes you. Clearly there is a step missing.I will add it, with gratitude to you -Step One:Make that listNEW Step Two:Ask yourself, if I did all of these things, what 'me' would I then be free to be.NEW Step Three:Be that you.NEW Step Four: Watch what happens.PS Here's what I know will happen:When you act as if you have already done those things - traveled, learned, experienced - in other words, when you no longer use NOT having done them as the reason you are not the you that you long to be, you can be that you.And when you are that you, strangely, miraculously, you start traveling, learning and experiencing the things that THAT you would.Does that make sense?-----Here's Marcia's response to the new exercise:Amy, it makes total sense and it's the only thing, I think, that holds me together... the hope.
Yet with hope comes the contrast. And with contrast comes resistence to what is. Then I wonder if that momentary lapse into HAVE NOT is what holds me back from having more.I am who I am and at my age I've learned to love the me I am. I express myself as Self in all I think, say and do. I honour those I meet and cherish each and every one at all levels of their being in any & every encounter. Life is precious and I honour it, myself and my Self and all of those I'm blessed to encounter.Yet I want more. Not things... I could happily let go of all but the basics and travel... travel... travel! Hey, I'm a Sag! I want experiences, interactions, adventures!For me the stress of suddenly realizing in any given moment that I'm not able to pay this bill or go visit a dying friend out east or... It hurts. I ache. I'm scared.Then I do all I can to focus on who I am at my core and take a step forward in the way my heart suggests. It seems it's all I can do.And I smile. When I smile my heart lightens and my light glows both inwardly and outwardly. And I take another step and keep that smile radiating. It is all I can do as it is who I am! And with my light shining, I share it with others to brighten their lives and day... that they too may pass it on!Thanks ever so for sharing with me here like this Amy. I feel so connected to you. Have since I first started following you on twitter. I adore technology for this very reason!-------Amy... a perfect addition to your exercise!Yes, that fits better with the growth and potential of it as a wonderful tool into Self.How sweet of you to offer me that gratitude. Don't you just love the synchronicity ;) of life?!!!And yes, you may use whatever you feel appropriate from my letter in your revision. Thanks for asking.I adore you, sweet woman that you are!HUGE ~s~m~i~l~e~s~With Love , Light & Laughter!
And finally, my response to this beautiful letter.
Thank YOU for your feedback.This is how we are crafting a process that works - and it will work for both of us!You know that I write all of these #SoulCalls as messages to myself, right?
And Marcia's final response to me.
This addition to your beautifully crafted #SoulCall process does, & will, benefit all who are calling out for it!I most certainly do know that you write them for yourself :DYet we, your readers, choose to connect with them thru you for ourselves too... love, love, love it!Adoring you from afar... and yet you are right here in my heart...Marcia